If you follow me on Twitter you will know I have given up smoking. I have smoked for 10 years and always defended it... pathetic I know, makes me no better than a dirty junkie lol!
Anyway, I didn't suddenly go all anti smoking, I haven't been talking about how I want to give up I just kinda did it which in itself was very odd for me. My dad had a heart attack last year and you would have thought that would have made me quit... it didn't and i'm pretty shamed of it. As my friend Sean pointed out... Marlboro owns me.
Anyway... today is day 4 and I have to say, its the worst day so far. I started out with a Nicorette patch on but had an allergic reaction to it which was a lot of f'in good! So I've gone cold turkey after reading a load of stuff from my new idol Allen Carr. Basically he sort of brainwashes you into knowing craving and stuff is all in your head and therefore, you don't need any nicotine replacement thingy me bobs. I do agree and if I am totally honest.... this isn't as hard as I thought....
HOWEVER..... Today I am an emotional wreck. I have just been on skype balling my eyes out to Sean because I don't want to put weight on now i've given up (Reason being, if I put on 4lb say, it will stay there cos I am a lazy bitch lol) To make myself feel better I went on the MAC website and bought some treats, and I then felt guilty about it... I'm replacing one addiction with another! At least shopping won't kill me, it can just make me bankrupt! :-s
So I want to cry at the drop of a hat.... I shouted at the cat, I shouted at my dad, I cried to Sean.... I am a mess today and even though I know I am being a complete penis, I am still doing it! I haven't smoked though.... I am waiting for a smug feeling to kick in but so far, nothing!!!!
My recent shopping has got me some nice new shiny things though!!! wooo!!! So far I have bought:
MAC Lipsticks in High Tea & Patisserie
MAC Blush in Peachtwist
MAC Brush cleaner
MAC Studio Sculpt Foundation NW15
Lola eyebrow pencil
Urban Decay Primer Potion
Now I had already decided I didn't like the studio sculpt foundation but I have bought it in the palest colour they do because the usual foundation I buy isn't available online and I am in addict mode so I wanted to buy and I wanted to buy now.... idiot!
I am sporting WHITE skin at the moment.... I can't really get used to it although I feel very liberated not having to put fake tan on! I'm currently getting laser treatment and you can't have any fake tan on while you get it done so much to my horror I had to go back to my normal skin lol!
This is my natural colour
Umm.... so yeah! I can't think of much else at the moment because I am consumed with trying not to smoke but I will update this more often! I've been slacking off!
Hope everyone is looking forward to the weekend! :)
I found the first couple of weeks the worst while giving up cigs. Its now been 3 months and i feel loads better for it. And i never put any weight on through it. Hang in there and well done. xxx
ReplyDeleteYay WELL DONE for not smoking!! Try and keep it up, everybody will just have to put up with your moods haha. Why are you having laser treatment??? I never realised you couldnt have fake tan on for that! You look so pretty pale though i just look ill! xx
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